Just letting you know

that I'll be going away until Sunday this week. It's been a really bad, bad, baaaad weekend.

Friday we had an appointment with the vet. Rosie's been having really really bad ears lately, so we wanted to get it checked again. She's been on medication for a long time and they just didn't seem to wanna heal. The vet put her in full narcosis, but she still cried out when the vet tried to examine her ear. In the end judgment fell.. It wouldn't be fair to Rosie to keep her alive. Her entire eardrum and mucosa were completely gone and she'd never be without the pain. She'd have to get her ear drained, cleansed and medicated throughout her entire life - and even painkillers wouldn't be sufficient enough to spare her the pain... We had to let her go. Therefore I dedicate this post to Rosie.

Full name: Cayuga Justonekiss

Called: Rosie

Born: April 9th. 2004

Sent to Dog-Heaven: November 19th 2010.

I can barely think of all this without wanting to cry. She was the 'Leader' of the flock. She was a diva and she went to dog shows most certain that the entire show was ONLY for her. Other dogs were simply lucky to have been invited. When she entered the ring, she would turn into this completely different dog. People could see that - and as her handler, I could feel it. She lit up, almost soared around the ring and took pride in being her. When she got her ribbon, she'd pick it up and carry it around in the ring, just to show off her pure awesomeness. She most definitely knew when she had won.

There will never be a dog like her. She only got 1 litter (that pretty much failed, as all of the pups had one illness, flaw or another) and 1 certificate (a specific prize. If you get 3 from different judges within the same country, your dog will be entitled 'Champion' of that country). She deserved many more. It's easy to look back now and think that she should never have had any puppies. She should simply have been allowed to go to dog shows and strut her stuff as she loved to do it.

We will miss her - and we will never forget her.

Never will there be anyone to ever take her place.

I promised myself that I would be strong, but as she was put in narcosis, she fell asleep on my foot as I sat beside her, I could see her looking at me as if she was saying 'What's going on? Why are you doing this?'. When we made the decision to put her down, my heart utterly BROKE. Many will say that dogs are simply dogs - but that's not true. Dogs like Rosie make everything worth while. She'd be the fluffiest, comforting shoulder to lean on, when you felt that everything was falling apart. Her and I would 'dance' and play on the fields, and every time we passed a bunch of kids playing soccer, she'd try to break loose to catch the ball. Even at 6 years she was playful, joyful and so lovable.

We got a bouquet from one of my mom's friends. She sent us a huge bouquet of white flowers with one single rose in the middle. The card said that that particular rose was to symbolize Rosie. And then she'd added a little quote that said "Wherever a beautiful soul has been, there is a trail of beautiful memories". So of course my mom and I had to cry again.. My dad made a photo album with pictures of Rosie. The worst thing is that he uploaded that picture above, of Rosie as a little pup in my lap by a camping area. We'd almost just gotten her home from Italy and decided to take her with us camping. She LOVED it and she was so happy and seemed as if she'd gone to Heaven. I remember her sitting in my lap almost attacking me with kisses and playful nibbles.

The other photo is of her from this year's Gold Cup show in Nyborg. This is where she had her uterus removed cause of an infection. She suffered from many illnesses throughout her time, so I guess we should've seen it coming. But generally it's hard to admit that your dog is ill, that you can do absolutely nothing to help her.. that it would be pure animal abuse to keep her alive spite the pain she's going through. And so.. we let her go.

We love you, Rosie. And you'll always be missed. We cherish the times we had with you, both good and bad, and I, personally, wish so bad, that you'd just come home again. That I can go downstairs at 7AM and you'll be laying in the hallway, one eye open looking at me like 'What? I aint going outside now! Are you crazy!?'.

So yeah.. my emotional blabbering is over.

'Normal' beauty post when I get home Sunday or at least the following week.

Obviously I haven't been feeling well this weekend. Crying on and off, holding her collar, looking into the hallway wishing that she'd lift her head and still be there.

But I know that's not gonna happen. Letting dogs go is one of the things that you never get used to. I grew up in a kennel where dogs came and left.. either due to aging, illnesses or simply circumstances. But man.. I can't remember when it was last THIS hard to say goodbye.

Also I take this opportunity to thank everyone who sent us their condolences and deepest compassion. Rosie held a place within many peoples' hearts and thanks to you all, she had a great life - even though it wasn't long.

Good luck in Dog Heaven, love.

I'll see you soon

♥ ♥ ♥

NYX haul and NOTD

Hey guys, another haul comin' for ya!

I've been waiting for these NYX items since FOREVEEEEEER, so I'm super excited that they finally arrived in the mail this morning \(^o^)/ *does victory dance*

I'm not gonna show you all the items, as I bought some stuff besides this for the giveaway AND some things for a swap - so you'll have to settle with these things until I get the giveaway up on here : P (... big surprise, the card's not working yet.. so I can't purchase the last things : ( boo!)

ANYWAY.. to the items!

Firstly I got 6 lipsticks. I tried to search for swatches online to get the best ones for either neutral, nude or soft pink lips. I'm keeping three of the lipsticks for myself - just to try out.

From left to right: Tea Rose, Power and Fig

Other lippies I got are still going to remain a big fat secret : P Haha, I'm truly sorry about the stupid giveaway-delay! I'm trying heeeere : ( I haven't tried these out yet, tho. And of course (cause I'm a dork) I accidentally poked one of the lippies I'm giving away! WHAT A FOOL I AM! Dammit.. I'm really sorry, but I promis y'all that I didn't use it or anything. I'd never do that..

Champagne & Caviar and Versus

These ones I'm really excited about. I did a quick swatch of some of the colors for you. Please do keep in mind that I'm using my own, lame camera, cause the focus on it is much better than the other camera that I'm borrowing from my gf. But the flash is retarded -_-" Anyway.. The colors are SUPER soft, silky and have great pigmentation so far. I'll be doing some looks with these to show you guys later, so look out for that!

Eggplan , TS3 trio, Iced Mocha

Next up are some eyeshadows. I got three trios in total (so be excited to see the other two : D ) and this one is called 'Nude, Taupe, Dark Brown' (aka. TS03). I'm really liking this one.. The single eyeshadows are called 'Iced Mocha' (also known as the probably most widely known dupe for MAC's Satin Taupe) and 'Eggplant'. I thought Eggplant was gonna be all matte, but it has this AMAZING metally finish with a hint of sparkle to it. SOOO effin' beautiful! But of course my camera makes the shadows look a bit weird. lol. I promise to do a look with these as well - I'm so excited to try out Eggplant. Don't you just LOVE it when you're pleasantly surprised with an online order? (elf could learn something from NYX, lol)

I got two of the Mega Shine lipglosses. This one's in Sweetheart - the other one's a secret. HAHAA (y'all be hatin' on me already for this, haha).. I LOVE this color. So nude, a hint of pinkness-taupe, a hint of sparkle, a hint of peachy undertones - so pretty! Love it!

But yeah.. That's it for the haul - at least of the stuff that I'm gonna show you : P haha.. Sorry, I'll stop now.

To end this, here's my NOTD. I'm wearing the Color Club Soft As Cashmere.. The color is SOOO pretty (even the swatch I showed you guys a while back made it look so darn pretty) - but I'm a bit disappointed.. It shows up very gray in the photo, but it's a bit more brown than that. The color itself is amazing, but it's annoying to put on. It's a very liquid consistency, and it dries very.. soft. As in.. the nail polish is very soft. It takes NOTHING to nick it, which really sucks : ( But it's pretty overall.. Sorry for the retarded photo. lol. My fingers look so fat.

Anyway, that's it for today guys..

I'll try to gather the giveaway items as fast as I can : D

Love y'all

♥

elf haul

I finally received everything I'd ordered from elf a while back. I'm not gonna thoroughly review everything - some of it I just received today, so yeah..

So far I'm not really liking the mineral lipsticks. They're super soft, yes - but if your lips are just the slightest dry, especially the Natural Nymph will look absolutely horrible. Also they crease a lot and the colors do NOT match the swatches on the website (big news, lol). You can't really massage the products into your lips, like you usually do after applying lipstick - you kinda have to just tap your lips against each-other (I know it sounds weird, but the product will be super creasing and all over the place if you're not very gentle). Generally none of these colors suit me that well and I think it's incredibly annoying how NONE of elf's online swatches match the real life colors just a TINY bit. I mean, come on? How hard can it be to put decent swatches online?

Another thing is the nail polishes. I bought these for my giveaway, as the website pretty much indicated that they'd be rather purple-ish. They're obviously not, but let me know if I should add them to the giveaway anyway.. You guys are the ones I'm giving it to, after all.

elf Complexion Perfection, Revlon Active in 004 Nude

elf HD finishing powder, mineral blush in Joy

Too Faced Shadow Insurance, elf eyeshadow duo in 'Mocha Swirl'

elf studio cream eyeliner in Black, elf mineral lipstick in 'Nicely Nude'

Revlon Lustrous Lipgloss in 'Pink Whisper', Rimmel Sexy Curves mascara

My FOTD is generally consisting of elf-products only. As you can tell here, the finishing HD powder makes my skin look VERY white. It's supposed to be translucent though, lol. But I kinda look as if I'm sick AND powdered my nose with flour. The eye shadow duo is AWESOME though, I really like it! It's soft almost silky to apply, it doesn't crease on top of my primer and the colors are super pretty. The cream liner seemed a bit dry for my liking, but I've never used cream or gel liner before - so what do I even know? lol. The lipstick looked horrible and not 'nicely nude' at all! Lol. So I put my beloved Revlon gloss over it.

All in all the products are decent for the price. The crease brush (studio line) is a bit too dense and tight to blend with, so yeah.. I love the powder brush tho, as it's super soft and would be pretty nice with mineral makeup! Oh.. and the hypershine lip gloss in 'Bubble Gum' is pretty much... horrible. lol. The color is pretty, but the container is just so BAD. It doesn't really release the product nicely into the brush applicator - it kinda just leaks out from the side of the applicator, so I had to apply it somehow sideways. It was very strange.. >_<" the color is cute on though. A soft, milky strawberry pink. I'm not gonna repurchase though.. However, if you're fine with the rather weird applicator, then it's a nice product.

Oh.. and for all you Saya-fans out there.

I snapped this photo of her yesterday..

She's calming down a lot, I had her out for a little petting today and she didn't seem nervous or anything. When I put her back in the cage she just chilled, and I could still pet her on her nose. Haha, it's funny how bunnies love to be petted on the bridge of the nose. Anyway, she's really starting to get used to it here, so I'm very pleased with that : D

Introducing Saya-bun

Hey guys! Just felt like sharing a picture and introducing the newest addition to my family. As some of you may know, I lost my dwarf hamster (R.I.P Mr. Lee) a few months ago and I swore that I'd never get a rodent again. I kept that 'promise' to myself, as bunnies aren't rodents. lol. I used to have a bunny. She passed away in late September 2008 - approx. 7½ years old. I really loved her company, and she definitely had some diva attitude going on.

I've been playing with the idea of getting a bunny again - but this time, if I decided on getting on, I wanted one that didn't grow as big. As you can probably tell by the title, I DID decide on getting a bunny, so here she is.

Saya

(catch the Blood+ reference, haha!

I call her Saya-bun, though)

She's an 8½ weeks old lionhead bunny. Or well, she's 3/4 lionhead and 1/4 dwarf bunny. She's the cutest thing ever, but as you can tell from the picture, she needs some time to get used to her new surroundings. I try my best to not scare her by doing any sudden movements and not be too loud. Generally she's not completely calm yet, but I'm trying my best! ^^v I've never had a bunny this tiny, and I can't even remember Vimse (my old bunny) being so scared of everything. I guess this has to do with her being so little still and super young. She used to be an outdoor bunny, but now she's been taken inside and suddenly people wanna cuddle her. Oh my, I understand her concern. *pats bunny* But I'll definitely try my best! (that's my way of the ninja! ... or something) lol.

Revlon Colorstay Active in 004 Nude, L'oréal powder

ELF complexion perfection, Rimmel Sexy Curves

ELF Mineral blush 'Joy', L'oréal bronzer in 'Thriving'

AND YES, I'm aware that L'oréal tests on animals. I'm only using this cause my new Mastercard is taking forever to transfer and work, so I can't buy replacements until probably next week.

Also quickly sharing my FOTD from yesterday - FOYD. lol. This is what I looked like when I went to pick up Saya. MAN the traffic in downtown Aalborg was freaking INSANE. O_Ô I don't know what the hell was going on.. but anyway, mom and I decided to chill at the mall until it was time to pick up Saya.. She bought me a chinabox (apparently not everyone is aware that a 'chinabox' is simply a small takeaway box with usually just one dish in it; in my case, sweet/sour chicken and noodles). I hadn't eaten all day, and this chinabox made me feel utterly HORRIBLE. Ugh.. not doing that again, fo' sho'.

Hope you're all well! : D

And thanks for the overwhelming amount of comments on my last entry!

WOAH, so populaaaar.. Hahah! I kid, but it was definitely overwhelming..

Phew~

Love y'all ♥

Welcome to the WWW (+fotd)

WARNING: Long philosophic entry!

As a beauty blogger, I'm more than just a 'face' attached to a website. As a girl, there will always be rumors and assumptions, jealousy and backstabbing frenemies. And as a human, I have to be able to take all this.

My day today has been pretty off. My mood's been low, I've been getting a shit load of messages (both kind but also disturbing), old friends who stabbed me in the back a long time ago, suddenly come running back to be friends with me again. I've come to a point in my life, where I see myself as too much of an adult to hate them for crawling back after saving their own asses back then, but on the other hand, I'm also too much of an adult to just pretend nothing ever happened. I wanna call them up, scream at them, smack their faces, tell them how hurt I actually was, when they left me there to socially die on my own.

The more popularity you gain (for whatever you may have done), the more people are gonna hate on you. People will ALWAYS put you down. And why? Because the ones who are less fortunate and less willing to change, will find someone else but themselves to blame, instead of taking responsibility for their own situation. No matter how hard you try your best to help, they will NEVER be satisfied.

Ohhh, look at ma sexualitaaaayy, lol.

Spite my sexuality and spite being in a relationship with a GIRL, you won't believe how many times I've been accused of stealing someone's boyfriend or flirting with their guy. This will often come from girls who I consider good friends.. Now, in a situation like this, the undercover frenemy suddenly comes to the surface and reveals him/herself. Their true intentions and their true feelings about you are revealed, and most of the time it's not that pleasant. I've often experienced anonymous comments here and there from people trying to take me down in the gutter with them, who later turned out to be someone I actually knew and even worse; thought was my friend.

I'm not quite sure where I'm trying to go with this.. I've just noticed how, especially on Youtube, gurus have to apologize for saying certain things. Like if they're doing a Kim Kardashian inspired look, they have to emphasize that they don't think they look like her, but that they're simply imitating her makeup look. Like, are you kidding me? OF COURSE you don't think you look like her.. We all have eyes in our heads (except for the super unfortunate ones), so we can obviously see that. But why do people still have the urge to attack these gurus if they don't say it? If a makeup collection is requested, the guru will be attacked for showing off, by guiding the viewers through his or her makeup products. Again, are you kidding me?

I think... what I'm trying to say is, that you shouldn't change yourself. To some people it doesn't matter HOW amazing you are, you'll never be good enough. Kinda like President Obama to the Tea Party, yeah? They make up the WEIRDEST theories about him (like him being a Muslim, can I get a 'wtf?'), to try'n convince the people to not vote for him. But to me that's just typical election campaign in the US.. If you can't say something good about your own aspirations; go smear some mud on one of the other candidates. And I think that's exactly what a lot of people like to do on the Internet. ESPECIALLY on the Internet, because this is where everyone can be anonymous.

Anyway... to all you duckface-haters (or anti-duckfaces)...

EAT THIS

L'oréal powder in Classic Tan, elf Everyday Eyes palette
NYX pencil in Black, Rimmel Sexy Curves mascara
MAC Creme Sheen in Boybait, NYX 'Horse Radish' pencil

Sorry, I couldn't help myself. I think it's absolutely ridiculous to even make a website and a song about how much you hate the duck-pouty-face. Has the world seriously come to this? Are y'all for serious? One would assume that the world was too busy moving itself towards world peace and sunday tea-parties with the Middle East - but nooooo... Now they be attacking the duckface! Damn, how dare those girls be lookin' cute all over the place!?

LOL. Sorry for the long entry anyway.

Love y'all

♥

Gettin' cold feet?

Hey y'all!

I went to the doctor's with my mom to get my health papers ready, so that I can get accepted to eventually GET my driver's license (if I pass the tests, that is). It's been hella windy today, and THEN what does the doctor tell me? "Did you bring a picture? No? Well I need you to go to the bookstore and get your license picture taken now, so that I can verify your identity.."

My lashes be lookin' so fiiiine! Too bad the passport-picture-quality is too shit for it to show up : ( boo!

THANK GOD I PUT ON MAKEUP TODAY! Hahahaha, omg. My hair was all over the place, but the photo turned out alright - MUCH better than my current passport photo, I can tell you that much. Sadly my smile in photos is always kinda awkward. It gets all crooked and kinda funny-looking, but I'll survive showing this one until I turn 70. lol..

After getting my picture taken, mom and I went to the pharmacy to get my prescription cream. I get these dry spots here and there (mostly on my arms and back) that come and go as they please.. But I know my skin good enough to be able to say that around winter time, it gets a LOT worse. So my doctor gave me a prescription for 100mg. of cream instead of just 30 - I should be good to go now ; D

Then we went to the shoe shop. I'm not really a shoe-girl. I'm MUCH more of a purse-lover, (and this store sold purses too.. was I distracted much? OH YES BABY!) but mom promised to donate her now unemployed daughter a pair of brand new winter boots. And which ones did I get?

I sure as hell won't be gettin' any sort of cold feet this winter! WOO! I love these boots! This super young, Asian girl helped me out.. I don't know what it is about young Asian girls, but when it comes to fashion and beauty, I just trust them 100%. They always look as if they know EVERYTHING about it. Too bad for this one that I came in to the store in my heaviest punker gear. I had no idea we were going 'shopping' today, so I just put on my girlfriend's gray/black striped jeans, a black long tank top and my girlfriend's Sex Pot Revenge tshirt with hood and her leather jacket. I looked like I just popped out of 'The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo'.. Hahaha! The poor girl was like 'Oh, and this boot suits dark colors very well too!' I went sorta like ''Uhh yeah.. please don't think I dress like this every day.. It's lazy-home-day today..'' I think my outfit scared her.. but I don't care. Cause the jacket smelt like Tanja *_* nom. //gay-comments-done.

AHEM!

I shall finish off this entry with a picture of my face au naturale (and before you ask, no; I never took French. lol.) Look how my hair is the only straight thing about me : D

^ [Ohh, that was unnecessary.. sorreh -_-"]

I VERY rarely straighten my hair, but it's pretty voluminous in this photo. And it brings out my highlights!

Have a good one, guys : D

I got a domain + mini haul!

I FINALLY bought a domain for my blog. So from now on you can link me (if you wish) as

www.nancakes.org

My website is obviously not an organization. But honestly.. I thought nancakes.net just looked lame. So yeah.. .org it is : D I really like it.. I'm also gonna be working on a new layout for Christmas time. I want to spice up the blog with some new photos and some cooler colors for the season, so look forward to that ♥

After waiting for barely 4 days, my new nail polishes arrived! I know that I mentioned China Glaze to be part of the giveaway - but it won't be. Cause I forgot to buy a pink-ish or nude one (cause that's how much of a genius I am).. so therefore I'll add a Color Club polish instead.

Now.. to the ones that I got for myself.. From left to right: China Glaze '2NITE', Color Club 'Soft As Cashmere' and China Glaze 'Recycle'. You can obviously tell Recycle and Soft As Cashmere apart, so I'm rather confused why people seem to be comparing them. Anyway, Recycle is a cold, creme, lighter gray - while Soft As Cashmere is a warm, creme, brownish gray. I am LOVING Soft As Cashmere, even though it takes 3 coast to be opaque enough for my taste. Recycle takes only two and glides on super smoothly.

Now to the color that really blew me away: 2NITE

How is this color not just.. AMAZING? It's a cold, blue shimmer with like rainbow flecks in it. SO freaking amazing and it looks even better irl. I gotta say though that this picture is pretty true to color spite the flash. I just love it so much! Funny how my own camera decided to work today.. it's nice though, otherwise there'd be no way in HELL I could take decent photos up-close.. my gf's camera has the worst focus EVER. lol. It's flash is much better than mine though :''D

Lastly I got these two Simple products. I usually use the Regenerating Night Creme with vitamins and stuff in it, but I ran out. I found these two goodies in a random discount grocery store. 3,75 bucks per bottle - YES PLEASE! My skin has been acting REALLY weird ever since I started using the Body Shop cleanser and toner -__-" I definitely won't be using those anymore. *kicks* But so far I really like the moisturizer. Awesomely enough it has UV protective filters in it, which is EPIIIIC and the toner is a bit soap-ish, but it soaks up easily and really leaves the skin with a fresh feel. I bought these two on Sunday, and I've been using them for only two days.. but so far I really like them!

Also, I don't celebrate Halloween or anything myself, but I still wanna wish y'all a Happy Halloweeeen! I hope you had a great time with dressing up, scaring people and demanding candy in exchange of not killing them ; D Haha!

Much love

♥